Space Fairy Blog

I’m wondering why almost everyone I know is on some kind of antidepressant or anti-anxiety medication, and the rest are suffering from chronic stress-related illnesses and get sick too often to be normal. (I’m including myself here too). I am rapidly coming to the inescapable conclusion that when everyone is sick, perhaps it’s not us as individuals to blame. We all think that something is wrong with us. But when everyone and everything is sick, maybe it’s not us at all. Maybe the world we’re living in is sick. We’re natural beings trying to fit into an unnatural world. Everyone raves about modern society with all its trappings and systems of efficiency being so great. But if it’s so great then why is everyone sick and on drugs trying desperately to barely “survive”. Think about it.

I walked out of my job today, because I felt sick. (I’ve also been feeling very stressed of late).

I came home and did some Japa meditation, or “Getting in the Gap” as Dr. Wayne Dyer would call it.

I meditated on some of the different names of the Goddess, as part of the invocation made many years ago with my (ex) coven sisters, as we chanted in unison and danced around the sacred circle, raising energy. “Isis…Astarte…Diana…Hecate…Demeter…Kali…Inanna…”

On this day I particularly identified with Kali, which is hardly surprising considering the recent circumstances of my life, and my recent longing to leave my current job and replace it with something much better, much more “me”, much more on the path of my sacred mission.

Anyhow, “Kali is the goddess of the endings of cycles, the death and transformation energy that lets go of the old and brings in the new” (-Doreen Virtue, PhD. in Archangels & Ascended Masters). And she is exactly who I needed to speak with today.

After invoking her I felt the immediate urge to do an impromptu releasing ceremony (-something which I haven’t done in a while, and which I usually used to perform on a full moon. But desperate times…)

I won’t tell you exactly what the spell was (or I’d weaken it) but it involved writing that which I wished to release and transform on a piece of paper, which I then set alight inside my cauldron (well it’s a metal cooking pot actually, but it does the trick) before scattering the ashes away as I released that which I no longer need.

It’s a very cathartic process. I highly recommend it Now we wait and see what happens…

Oh- I also used the Archangel Oracle Cards and asked the Archangels and Ascended Masters to remind me of my life’s purpose, and lo and behold my old friend the “Creative Writing” card is the first one that shows up. (Yeesss, I knoooow already!…oh yeah).

P.S. The angels also told me to write all of this down so here it is. Have a magickal day!

(Reading by myself, for myself, using the
“Magical Messages from the Fairies Oracle Cards” by my teacherDoreen Virtue)

• 3 Card Spread
  • “Pregnancy”
  • “Practice, Practice, Practice”
  • “Perfect Timing”
• I was pondering: my whole stressful situation recently with my desire to make positive career and life changes (but feeling trapped by my job and lack of money, which, combined with all my stressing, and the big life change of moving house recently, has left me feeling unbalanced and temporarily depressed).
• What to do about it/ The Answer: Do a bit and practice everyday so that I don’t feel overwhelmed. Make positive changes one step at a time, day by day in the direction of my dreams.
• Where I’m headed if I follow the guidance of the 2nd card: My dreams will come true in Perfect Timing (I was a little fuzzy on this one at first).

Then, when I asked for additional guidance about this reading I got:

• “Summer” (”Everything that you’re asking for becomes yours in the Summertime…”) “You’ve drawn this card because you wonder when your desires will manifest. This card represents the reassurance that your wishes have been heard, and divine timing is clearing the way for your answered prayers to come to you at the perfect time. In this case, you’ll fully realise your dreams in the Summer”

• (Additional Notes: While randomly shuffling, the “Son” card popped up a couple of times, but its meaning perplexed me, so I ignored it. I was a bit concerned that it showed up in the same reading as the pregnancy card though!)

I am an Empress! I must say this is hardly surprising

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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(The following is one of my journal entries at the New Order Business School. As part of my scholarship, I agreed to keep a success journal of my progress through the course for all to see!)

Upon reconnecting with my business visualization from Lesson 1…

WHY is it important to me that I achieve this?

Because I am connected with my passions, and every day that I go to “work” I feel that I am fulfilling my life mission and exercising my Divine Right of Creation.

How will I FEEL when I make this real?

Content, fulfilled, peaceful & grounded, uplifted, joyous, inspired, excited, grateful, abundant, healthy, balanced, blissful and filled with awe.

Why am I committed to do so?

• Because my life demands that I live on purpose (inspiring others to live magickal joy-filled lives).
• Whenever I do this I feel blissful, serene, awe-inspired, and connected to my source.
• Whenever I don’t do this I feel bad, like I’m wasting my time at worst, and at best ’spinning my wheels’ while procrastinating, waiting, and dreaming of when I’ll “someday” have the guts and determination to live my life on purpose.
• In short- doing this feels like Bliss, and not doing it feels like crap!

“MY WHY”

Why have I created my entrepreneurial dream?

All of my experiences in life so far have taught me that having an average J.O.B. while working for others (and letting their dreams and goals dictate what I do day in, day out) is NOT conducive to making me feel fulfilled or living my life on purpose, which is very important to me.

The only exception to this was when, for a short time a few years ago, I occasionally helped out Leela (CEO of Metier Media) in the Office of ‘Spheres: The Spirit Guide’ magazine. While working here:

• I was Inspired and Inspiring.
• Surrounded by my favorite spiritual books (which the magazine was selling)
• My job involved Writing, which is one of my major passions.
• I got to work alongside some of the best and well-known mentors in the industry.
• I had the opportunity to contact and work with some of my favorite, best-selling authors and spiritual teachers from around the world.
• I even got to have a creative say in the development of their new “SpellCraft” magazine.
• Most importantly, not only was I doing work that I enjoyed, but I felt the bliss that comes from sharing my talents and Inspiring others.
• When readers of “Spheres” began sending me letters, I was given my own, regular column in the magazine, and soon after, I became contributing author for the “Spheres Angel Wishing Kit”.

My entrepreneurial dream involves directly working with my favorite “magick books” (as I like to call them), books, CD’s, and DVD’s by the best spiritual authors, as well as creating my own online publication, all while I write my own Book. I currently believe that the business in this vision is the perfect platform for me to Live my Bliss, Inspire others, and help to improve countless lives (including my own) while I’m at it.

So that’s why!

(The following is one of my journal entries at the New Order Business School. As part of my scholarship, I agreed to keep a success journal of my progress through the course for all to see!)

I really enjoyed Lesson 2 of the ‘Getting Started’ course. Everytime I do an exercise in which I have to connect with my dream, I feel closer to achieving it

What would make me very happy:

(ASAP…)

• I no longer have to attend my day job. Somehow, from somewhere, in perfect timing & order, Scott and I have received enough money and resources, so that every day I can focus on creating my brilliant business.
• I am becoming more disciplined in my daily Yoga practice. I am increasing in health and in strength every day.

(Within the next 2 months…)

• The move into our house (in August) goes smoothly and easily. The new house is perfect for us.
• We have successfully and easily manifested a fridge, washing machine, new couch, and maybe even a television.
• My new home office is set up, and even includes a laser printer and scanner/ photocopier.
• My business successfully “opens its (virtual) doors” in August, just after our move. I already have an abundance of customers within the first week, and with operations going smoothly, I am now able to focus more on marketing, P.R., and getting the word out online.

(Within the next 6 months…)

• My business is growing so successfully that I am now able to hire a part time assistant to help with the running and maintaining of the business.

(Within the next year ~and a half…)

• My business is so successful that I am now able to hire one or two full time assistants to help with the running and maintaining of the business.
• Scott and I are receiving enough extra income to allow us to start renovating our house!
• Scott and I are getting married, and can afford to get our relatives together for a mighty shindig celebration. We can even afford to go on a honeymoon somewhere nice (which by the way would be our first “proper” holiday away together).

What will I do almost anything to avoid:

• Being broke, and in this position of being scared of not having enough money.
• Getting stuck in a J.O.B. (what Robert Kiyosaki calls “Just Over Broke”) and stuck in a position where I’m not fulfilling my passions or working toward my dreams.
• Feeling like I’m wasting my life by not living on purpose.
• Sharehouse Living again (with anyone other than my sweetheart)
• Apartment Living (unless it’s new so it doesn’t flare my allergies, has plenty of space, and quiet neighbors)
• Getting Chronic Fatigue Syndrome/ M.E. or Depression again.

(The following is one of my journal entries at the New Order Business School. As part of my scholarship, I agreed to keep a success journal of my progress for all to see!)

Well I’ve never had a business lesson which involved duct tape before. For a while there I was kind of wondering what I’d gotten myself involved in! hehe. But anyway, here goes…

According to this self analysis thingy, “You are in touch with your dreams and have a great deal going for you. (Well Duh!) The course is probably all you need to begin pulling it all together to make those dreams come true”. (Hooray!)

Here is the breakdown of my current totals from the assessment:

• Dreaming: 7/7
• Planning: 6/7
• Resources: 2/7 (Gulp!)
• Personal Vision: 5/5
• Status Quo: 4/5 (not entirely sure what this means?)

My Business 1 Year from Today
Today is the 25th June 2009, and my business is booming! I am in my new home office, in our recently renovated home, consulting with my support team (yes- the business has grown so much that I have had to employ staff to cope with the high demand for our services!) Together we are discussing last minute preparations for the company’s first trade-show experience, this weekend when we are exhibiting at the Mind Body Spirit Festival. We are well on our way to becoming the number one, most popular holistic/ new age store on the Internet, and our free Magazine has one of the largest subscriber bases for its kind in Australia (over 20,000) and is taking off Internationally as well as we expand into the American Market. At least one of our team members is a well-known, best-selling author and speaker. Each of us absolutely loves the work that we are doing together, and we are grateful that so many blessings are coming out of it, and that together, we are making a positive impact on thousands of lives around the world.

Some Currently recognised Self Quotes

• “It’ll probably take me a while before I can get started”
• “It’ll probably take ages before I actually make any money” (-I realised the only reason I say that is because that is the limiting expectation they taught us at university!… But they obviously weren’t thinking of some of the newer Internet businesses when they taught us that!)

New Self- Quotes Re-Written (Affirmations!)

• “I am Decisive, Focused, and Creative. I have all the resources I need to get my business up and running within the next month”
• “I am a super-savvy and highly creative business woman and marketing guru-ess. I am preparing to make a fortune through my business within the first year of operations. My business is growing so fast that I will be more than able to replace my current job income within the next two to three months”

P.S. I was a good girl and didn’t require any duct tape this time hehe

Tonight we got my engagement ring! I’m so excited, I have to show everyone!!

(0.85 carot diamonds HI [near colourless], set in 18c white gold- in other words, very SPARKLY!)

My passion is inspiring people to live magickal, joy- filled lives. I am now creating the largest “book temple” (that’s book shop- I love books!) on the Internet, specializing in tools designed to inspire people from all over the world to live their best lives imaginable!
I have some really big ideas, and the passion to make it happen. I’ve got most of the skills I’ll need, and I’m outsourcing the rest. I am a marketing goddess. I’ve done my business and market research, and I’m really excited because this is going to be HUGE!

The website is almost ready to go, the suppliers are lined up, the offline publicity efforts sorted, and I’ve already got future customers (“fans”) knocking down my door waiting for
me to get started. The logistics are sorted, the technology set up, the business and marketing plan almost ready to go, and the home office will be set up when my new fiancé and I move into our first home next month (excitingness!)

Of course I don’t yet have all the funding required to actually get totally set up yet but that’s just a minor detail, soon to be rectified as I am quite creative and resourceful (and majored in Creative Industries and Business Entrepreneurship at university- not that all of it was that useful it turns out).

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Until one is committed, 

there is hesitancy, 

the chance to draw back, 

always ineffectiveness. 

Concerning all acts of initiative 

there is one elementary truth, 

the ignorance of which kills 

countless ideas and endless plans: 

That the moment one definitely commits oneself, 

then providence moves, too. 

All sorts of things occur to help one 

that would never otherwise have occurred. 

A whole stream of events issues from the decision, 

raising in one’s favor all manner of 

unforeseen incidents and meetings and 

material assistance which no man 

could have dreamed would come his way. 

Whatever you can do or 

dream you can, begin it! 

Boldness has genius, power, 

and magic in it. 

~ Goethe ~ 

The reason why the homes of incarnated fairies are always messy is because they still carry a strong disposition to living amidst nature… with leaves landing wherever the wind carries them (it may seem disorderly but in reality it’s all perfect) and where twigs fall onto the forest floor and it’s okay for them to stay there (indeed, it’s actually preferred that they stay there because it makes great compost).

The whole “Stepford Wives”- kind of perfect modern home with everything in it’s place as humans have proclaimed it- now that is unnatural.

P.S. Today I learned how to make Plasma using my microwave oven

What a weird month. I’ve dumped the old boyfriend, traded up to a new one, rediscovered how awesome Star Trek is, pissed off my former best friends because I have no more patience for men who treat women badly, started the hunt for a new city apartment, and had he flu to top it all off- twice. Yay.

All up though, I’m feeling pretty good at the moment. Work’s going well, my new (younger) boyfriend is awesome and I genuinely haven’t been so happy with a guy for many years. I’ve gone back to my nerdy roots (where I belong) and I finally made that pink Transformers T-Shirt I’ve been talking about for a while. But yeah, all this change has made me a bit distracted, so if you haven’t heard from me for a while that’s probably why! P.S. New photos from Supanova Pop Culture Expo, including me and Jewel Staite (Kaylee from Firefly & Serenity) coming soon…

At Christmas I visited the town where I grew up, in the Blue Mountains (west of Sydney). I hadn’t been back there in 10+ years. I climbed down a freak’n mountain! (Enjoy the photos!) Recently I discovered an old school assignment, which gives perfect insight into what the Blue Mountains means to me. As you can see I have been into fairies for a long time!

In my home town Katoomba, on top of a cliff, I am but a child. At the bottom of the cliff, on the rainforest floor, I am transformed. The Scenic Railway carriage that rides vertically down the mountain is a magical vessel traveling through the veil between the worlds. When my ride has cleared the dark tunnel through the rocks, I emerge into the sunlight feeling freer and more magical than before.

The world up there is about primary school, homework, and teachers, but down here it is my world where I am the Fairy Queen of the Blue Mountains. Down here is my playground, where I swing on vines like Tarzan; it is my music hall, where I listen to the symphony of hundreds of species of birds; it is my art gallery, where I admire the unusually shaped rocks that have been carved out by the wind and running water; and it is my mystery school, where I learn the ancient esoteric wisdoms and the magickal arts, that are whispered to me on the wind.

Lyrebirds pick at the leaves in the damp earth. Sunshine filters through the treetops high above me. The air here is the freshest you will find anywhere in New South Wales, and perhaps even Australia. Away from the tourist tracks, there are no other people here- it’s just me, the trees, the bush animals, and the fairies. Moss covered rocks line a clear pool where water gushes from a crack in the wall above it. This is my magickal fairy well. Whoever drinks of these waters shall enjoy eternal life. My fairy friends dart around me; they are dancing on the surface of the water and jumping amidst the green stones. A freshwater yabby crawls across the bottom of the pool. The fairies scatter away so they don’t get eaten.

I leave the area that the tourists know about and walk alone into the wilderness. I’m not afraid of getting lost. This is my home. This is my blood. I feel safe here. I could curl up and go to sleep on a rock amongst the ferns and the birds, who are my friends, would alert me of any danger.

There is an old mine-shaft, guarded by thick iron bars. At one time, during the shale-mining era, this entrance led to a tunnel that ran deep underneath this mountain and exited into the Megalong Valley. My dad said there were glow worms inside. He saw them when he came here to play as a boy, before the bars were put here in the 70’s. My dad even crawled inside here and signed his name on an old metal coal skip that he found. I wonder if it’s still there, and if he saw the underground fairy kingdom that some say lies beneath this mountain.

Every now and then, while playing down here, I’d find another piece of history. Metal cables lie half buried in the earth, which have been here since the days of the original aerial ropeway, called “The Flying Fox”, in 1885. I find pieces of the metal cable that snapped, when the whole thing came crashing down to earth here over one hundred years ago. Nearby lies an old metal skip that has not moved since the day it fell from the sky. It’s still full to the brim with coal. I wonder why, in all this time, no one has tried to retrieve this mess, which is scattered throughout the entire valley. Then I remember that I’m in the middle of the rainforest, far away from human civilisation. Mum would freak if she realised how far I’d come, alone.

Nearby, back on the tourist track, is the base of the Great Landslide. Looking upward to the top of the cliff makes me dizzy it’s so high. I’m surrounded by boulders the size of houses. Standing here makes me a little nervous as there is still a minor split in the earth far above me; however my dad proclaimed it safe enough the day he stepped over the deep split then jumped up and down on the protruding rock like he was daring it to fall. You’d think that someone who grew up around cliffs wouldn’t be afraid of heights, but not me. I was so petrified; I closed my eyes until he returned safely to solid land. There hasn’t been a major rock fall here since the 1930’s, but I can’t help thinking that the evil bush wizards might see this as an opportunity to rid this land of its beloved fairy queen. Afraid, I hurry through the rubble- laden path, and emerge to where the path is clear, triumphant again that I have evaded the curse of the evil rock wizard.

Nearby is my own private mining station where, alongside my minion of elves and dwarves, I dig for stones and fossils. These magickal rocks are characterised by the imprint of fossilised leaves. I will later carry the best of these specimens back home with me to the top of the cliff, back to the normal realm, and use them as part of the spells and magickal potions that I like to mix up in my backyard. I’d then write the results of these spells, things like “I made the wind change direction”, into my handmade magickal spell book, written in the invisible ink of lemon juice. This made much more sense to me than pointless activities like watching television.

 When playtime was over in my mystical kingdom on the forest floor, I’d take my latest fossil finds and any other treasures I found, like brightly coloured bird feathers, and ride back up the side of the cliff, and out through the magickal cave.

At the top there are people bustling all around the tourist centre. Happy families taking photographs and buying souvenirs. I say goodbye to my aunt who works at the ticket booth, then head towards my home, which is on the highest hill on top of the cliff.

The tourists think they know the Blue Mountains after buying a map and going for a bushwalk along the designated tracks. But they have no idea what is really down there, or of my secret playing spots. If they did, then I, the Fairy Queen of the Blue Mountains, would have an awful lot of human refugees in my kingdom.

Scene One:

ANZ Stadium, Brisbane (Apparently Michael Jackson played here once…)

The Speech I was meant to say:

“Hi, I’m Melinda Maxfield. I am a networker, uni student and soon-to-be author. Jenny and Arthur are amazing business mentors. They have repeatedly gone out of their way to help me, and this has included driving up from the Gold Coast to Brisbane twice a week to counsel me while helping me to start my team. They are awesome and I really appreciate everything they’ve done for me…”

(Now I am on stage, I notice that among those giving me a standing ovation are 30+ multi-millionaires sitting in the front row, followed by half a team of really hot looking professional footballers whom I’ve previously only seen on TV…)

So, What I said instead:

“I have no idea what it was I was going to say… but I’m really excited to be here!!”

(Cheering and wild applause!)

…and off goes giggly Mel to find the nearest Toastmasters meeting…

Lately, everytime I’ve started thinking about writing a new blog post, I feel slightly lost for words and overwhelmed with the possible choices of news to write about. You see, I’ve got a lot going on in my life right now. I am undertaking tremendous  change and personal growth at the moment, which while I’m still in the midst of, I cannot even begin to put into words eloquently what I am currently experiencing except to say… WOW!!

Super-Super-Brief rundown of where I’m at, without explaining much:

• Awesome boyfriend. I once suspected that I hated men. Now I think that my “anti-man barriers” have been melted forever (and it’s a good feeling!)
• My awesome new marketing business! This is going swimmingly so far (well from my perspective it is, and let’s face it, it’s all about perspective. I’m learning HEAPS)
• Finding my fantastic business mentors. This is something which successful people have done through the ages, so I thought, “Hey- why not me aswell!”
  I have since befriended the most amazing group of successful entrepreneurs, and at the moment I am recieving mentoring and “business training” from a lovely South African living on the Gold Coast. Recently they have been travelling up to Brisbane as much as twice a week, specifically to help me get started in my business (incidentally, they also have a partial stake in my future success- which is also good incentive!)
• A new attitude towards life, thanks to the business training program I have been immersed in lately. I have been getting up at 5:30am to jog in the park, and I haven’t watched TV in weeks! (Which I’m totally NOT missing by the way!)

Well, I’ve successfully managed to go a whole week without video-documenting something. Hooray! (My friends convinced me to stay away from video blogging while recovering from dental surgery this time).

But what will I distract myself with if I’m not making documentary videos about random stuff?

Facebook.
…Feel the addictiveness.

It kind of shits me that Superwall has become yet another avenue to spread meaningless forwarded drivel/ aka spam rather than being an avenue for conversation and relationship building [over the internet] which I suspect it was originally intended to be (…or something like that).

Tonight’s my favourite marketing lecturer’s birthday, and that got me thinking about all the cool stuff she taught us about Integrated Marketing Communication, and how marketing has to change from the obsolete methods of yesteryear; Niche marketing vs. mass marketing; 1 on 1 relationship building rather than blanket advertising which treats everyone like a faceless clone. They have no choice if they want to sell stuff now. Generation-Y public caught onto what they were doing before, and are naturally suspicious of mass advertising (or of anyone who assumes they understand their individual needs and wants when clearly they don’t).

Anyway, I was thinking that all the forwarded chain letters on Facebook are kinda like the mass marketing of yesteryear which everyone hates so much (kinda like it but not). It’s the whole “lets send a bunch of stuff out to hundreds of random people to make it look like we care about them as a person, but really we don’t give an arse, as long as they see it comes from us and hence they think of us-albeit briefly- so as to increase our brand awareness”. Am I right??

P.S. Just to be crazy/ random, here’s me with a sparkly pink butterfly and a boat I’m thinking of buying…

I recently found a name for the condition which has plagued me all of my life…

(From Steve Pavlina.com)

“One obstacle that traps a lot of highly conscious people is what Erin and I call Lightworker Syndrome.  This is what happens when someone wakes up to a higher level of consciousness, but they can’t figure out how to live on purpose and feed themselves at the same time.  Such people have a lot of trouble staying connected to higher levels of consciousness while also remaining solidly grounded in the physical world.  Many of them get so frustrated with the experience they become depressed and have feelings of wanting to give up and just “go home” (i.e. return to the nonphysical world).”

Hello! Me me me *puts hand up*…

Spiritual connectedness vs. physical groundedness

“These troubled lightworkers often feel they must compromise:  either stay connected up top and be totally ungrounded, or lose that higher connection and become more grounded.  But this is a really tough compromise, so many of them oscillate back and forth, never quite sure which is the right way to go.

Consequently, these lightworkers either do empty work they don’t enjoy but which pays OK, or they do purpose-centered work that hardly pays anything.  They end up sacrificing either their purpose or their income, since it’s very, very challenging to satisfy both at the same time.  But this either-or decision takes a toll in the long run.  It’s hard to stay on purpose if you’re worried about paying the rent, and it’s hard to generate good income if your work doesn’t inspire you”.

Story of my life! 

Fearing your own power 

“The reason you can’t maintain your stable connection to Source AND remain grounded at the same time is that you’re afraid of what it will mean if you succeed…”

“I know a lot of would-be lightworkers are concerned they can’t make a living pursuing their purpose.  I didn’t have that problem though.  I felt confident I could make a living at it somehow.  What really held me back was whether I felt comfortable doing it at all.  My real fear was:  What’s going to happen if this actually works?  What if I succeed?”

“Whenever I see a broke lightworker, I invariably see an underlying fear of success. ”

“I’m sure you’ve heard the expression, “With great power comes great responsibility.”  And that is exactly what lightworker syndrome sufferers fear most.  They fear that if they actually succeed, they’ll have a lot of responsibility on their shoulders.”

Overcoming fear of responsibility 

“I admitted to myself that I had the internal resources to be doing much better, but I was holding myself back.  I knew I wasn’t doing my best, but why not?  I wasn’t doing my best because I wasn’t ready to accept the consequences of doing my best.

If I really did my best, I’d have a bigger impact.  I’d draw a lot of people to me.  I’d end up with a lot of responsibility.  Scary.”

 Position vs. power

“If I don’t exercise my power, it doesn’t mean I’m powerless.  It just means I’m inactive.

I thought to myself, “Crap!  I’ve been thinking all this time that I’m staving off power (and thus responsibility) by declining to act.  But all I’m really doing is giving up control.  If I have the potential, then I have the power, which means I have the responsibility too, whether I act on it or not.”  Failure to act does NOT relieve one of responsibility.

It was then that I had an epiphany.  I realized I could never escape responsibility by failing to act.  The only thing I could escape was control.  This is why I say you can give up control but never responsibility.  Responsibility is a given.”

The epiphanies keep coming… 

WTF?!

Welcome to Friday night at the club…

• Having to remind drunk men that I am ONLY A WAITRESS and should they wish to book a stripper, please see reception
• Working behind the bar with minimal training and almost zero knowledge of alcohol (”how the hell do you make…”)
• STRIPPER FIGHTS! in the back room (how amusing)
• Having several hot guys try to give me their phone number, and actually exercising some SELF CONTROL for perhaps the first time in my life when it comes for men (It’s all about setting BOUNDARIES ;p)
• Being invited to Saudi Arabia (I haven’t had that one before!)
• Being asked repeatedly to dance (with my clothes on) because apparently I’m prettier than all the strippers and they only want to see me. Really? Awww shucks… I’m still not doing it! ;p
• Being told by countless men that my boyfriend is the luckiest guy on earth (hope he knows it

So why the hell am I working at a gentlemen’s club?!? I was wondering the same thing… then I counted my tips for the night…

Almost $100 in tips for a few hours work.

(It sort of makes up for the interestingness! ;p)

I have a confession. I played in the park every night this week. And I love it! I have recently discovered that my suburb is blessed with several fine parks. We’ve got swings, slippery-dips, see-saws, merry-go-rounds, flying foxes, funky climbing things, spinning-around-things that you sit on, and even space-age musical instruments which light up like something out of Close Encounters when you “play” them. Seriously, why don’t more adults play in the park? Why should kids get to have all the fun? These past few nights have been really beautiful. The moon is luminous, the grass is soft, the ring-tailed possums are playing nearby, and my friend and I have discovered the joys of eating dinner under the stars. It beats watching television! Does anyone get out at night anymore? (when it doesn’t include drinking or partying) or is everybody else these days too addicted to the box or the internet?

We also found a late-night ice cream parlor down the road from where I live. Midnight ice cream attack! Awesome!

Don’t be afraid to step outside sometimes, to get out of your comfort zones and LOOK UP toward the stars. Dudes, there are like whole other worlds out there. Ponder them occasionally!

P.S. Tomorrow I trial my new job. I’m excited, because it looks really fun! I’ll let you know how it goes

We continue our series of retro-geek-funness, with three more TV shows which SpaceFairy loved when she was a kid in the 80’s. Some are obscure, some are more popular, but all of them ROCKED… enjoy!

MASK

M.A.S.K. (an acronym for the Mobile Armored Strike Command) was like a hybrid between Transformers and G.I. Joe. It had transforming vehicles, cute cartoon guys (Matt Trakker!) with super-powered helmets, who battled against the criminal organisation V.E.N.O.M. (Vicious Evil Network of Mayhem). I personally liked it better than…

Transformers

Then there was Ulysses in space… Gotta love the space-age Greek mythology!

Ulysses 31

And finally, something with a little less destruction and mayhem to bring back warm fuzzy memories…

Kimba the White Lion

Awwww…

Stay tuned!